Already Leaving

© Anne Sumner 2018

For the very last time, won’t you hold me
Put your hand in mine and look me in the eye
’Cause I’ve known from the start that you’d be leaving
But as journeys go, ours has been so kind
There was nothing I could do to shake the distance
There was nothing I could say to mend the bridge to your heart
There was nothing I could give, that you’ve not already had in spades
In these graceless days

And at this time of year when things were going well
He’d send a message to himself
And say it just don’t feel right
Against his expectation with everything to lose
Well this is not what I would choose
That I would be fine without you
How do I hold on, when he’s already leaving?

When the tenderest soul takes a beating
To hear the stories told leaves you in dismay
When hearts are heavy to hold, and love is fleeting
It made perfect sense why you couldn’t stay
I could look into your eyes and love you always
I was holding you a place in this ramshackle home
Tread gently with your care
’Cause he doesn’t have a space for it
He’s been too damaged

And at this time of year when things were going well
He’d send a message to himself
And say it just don’t feel right
Against his expectation with everything to lose
Well this is not what I would choose
That I would be fine without you
How do I hold on, when he’s already leaving?
How do I hold on, when he’s already leaving?

Is there anywhere to fall from here?
I’m just waiting for the smoke to clear
’Cause each day our love gets a little bit easier to bear

And at this time of year when things were going well
He’d send a message to himself
And say it just don’t feel right
Against his expectation with everything to lose
Well this is not what I would choose
That I would be fine without you
How do I hold on, when he’s already leaving?
How do I hold on, when he’s already leaving?

For the very last time, won’t you hold me?
Put your hand in mine, and look me in the eye